VBB 326 Felicity Nicole

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Virgin, Beauty, Bitch, Podcast: Inspiring women to overcome social stereotypes and share

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unique life experiences without fear of being defiantly different.

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Your hosts, Christopher and Heather, let's talk, shall we?

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Fate can be ironic in that the people who can make all the difference in our fate in

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life are the people we don't get to choose.

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No one chooses their family of origin.

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Some are born into unconditional love or abundance, while others must endure abuse, neglect,

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or worse.

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Our family can make us or break us.

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But our guest today is living proof that how we begin in life doesn't have to determine

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our fate throughout our lives.

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We welcome two-time international best-selling author, creator, speaker, intuitive mentor

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and CEO, CEO Felicity Nicole to Virgin Beauty Bitch.

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Welcome Felicity.

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Thank you for having me, you both are beautiful souls.

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Wow.

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I'm excited.

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I'm going to set that right back at you.

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Yes.

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Yes.

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Felicity, we don't know one another, but I can tell you right now that it is very easy to

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like you.

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You know why?

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I can count on one finger the people I know who have lived a charmed childhood.

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The rest of us either hide our truth behind a wall of shame or we use it as a sympathy magnet

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while others share it with bitterness and hate.

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You do none of the above.

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Maybe you can share some of your origin story and from there we can get into how you made

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it your fuel and not your fate.

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I love that.

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What a beautiful question.

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So I am a childhood trauma domestic violence survivor.

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I witnessed my father attempt to murder my mom at the age of 10 and from there I just grew

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up in a highly toxic dysfunctional family.

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I have been, I'm 47, I'll be 48 in May, I have been emotionally, mentally, physically

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and unfortunately sexually abused pretty much the majority of my life.

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But what you said earlier is within regards to the bitterness or hiding behind that is I've

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managed to face those demons that generational trauma.

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I became that cycle breaker in my family and that was in order to help my son.

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It's really about him.

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Yeah.

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So in a cycle of somewhat you were created by your forebears to be who you are but in your

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son you saw hope of being something else and bringing something else.

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That's powerful.

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It's powerful.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I think as a mother or just in general, somebody that we love, right?

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We don't have to be a mother.

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It could be a best friend or another family member that, you know, we sacrifice, I'll sacrifice,

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we sacrifice for the better good of them.

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And so, you know, he too has a lot of his own baggage and that's for him to tell if he

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decides to ever share his story.

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But yeah, I've done all of this for my son because he has a new road to go on to that's

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free of the boxes that family curses or ancestral trauma will put us into.

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I mean, you're everything that you've taken from your experiences as a child and how it's

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fueled who you are today and to really encourage women to discover their own inner wisdom.

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It's honestly uplifting to hear all the times that you've spoken and the way that you're

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very personable with even a wide broad audience.

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And I'm just wondering from the work that you've done, like for women who have either as

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Christopher said kind of been held under shame or, you know, I think that one of the emerging

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things that happened after that Giselle case in France, it is the narrative that shame

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needs to switch sides and that the more that women or people who have been abused are

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cloaked in the shame of their perpetrator that it just allows for a lot more violence

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to continue.

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So in that transition for you or perhaps an ongoing evolution, what was that like for

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you or continues to be like to not have the shame cloak you but to instead inform finding

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your deeper wisdom?

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Yes, I am an alchemist, right?

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So we are going to, we have two choices.

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We can either sit in mess and I can like we discussed earlier and I can just play the

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victim and live the life that was given to me or that was designed for me or I can be

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the voice to myself and I can take all of that pain, all of that deep therapy that I've

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done, all of those dark moments I've had to face and I can alchemize all that through

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healing and to something more powerful and that is the gift of my voice.

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I am the voice for all of those that haven't had the courage to speak out yet and that's

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what I'm really, that's the platform, that's what it's about.

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It's medicine for the soul.

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Felicity, is that innate in all of us or what is it that broke the seal for you?

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To go from being the victim, being a victim of fate and being someone who is creating their

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own fate?

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I had, you have to find it, we all have it within us, right?

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So I had to find it during that dark moment and that was in my first marriage to my, my

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ex-husband who was severely abusive.

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It's in our solar plexus, it's in our, it's a power center and that's where the

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flame is.

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And I was able to see just a tidbit of it and I knew that God had something more in store

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for me.

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I could feel it.

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The nudges were, were being, I don't want to say nudge to me, were we'll be spoken to

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be whispered to me as, as somebody who is born and raised, it capped like I'm very spiritual,

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very gifted.

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So I could hear this, I could feel this.

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I knew I was meant for something more.

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So I just had to take the bull by the horns and just start slowly but surely peeling back

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the layers of the onion.

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Because it's painful to just face it, head on, all that.

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So how did you start doing that to peel back those layers when you don't, like people

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are scared to start peeling them back?

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Like was there coaching or just an internal dive that you did?

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How did you facilitate that within yourself to get it started?

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Absolutely.

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What a great question.

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And I like to use humor.

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So I'll tell you a really funny story about all of this.

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So I started simply with affirmations and meditation.

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That was it.

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And then I started with a therapist.

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And with therapy, they're only going to let you, they're only going to push you so much

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until you're ready to peel that onion.

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So here I am doing my affirmations, doing my meditations, going through therapy.

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And then I'm healing surface level healing.

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It wasn't until I was in a, how do you want to say it?

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Group program, let's say my ex, my husband and I decided to try this group therapeutic program.

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And I write about this and it's in my book, Pieces of Me.

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And it's something that kids will walk through.

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It's basically from a therapeutic boarding school that moms and dads will send their kids

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to that are in need of some deep help themselves.

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So I'm like, yeah, this is fun.

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Let's do this.

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You know, we'll be out in Utah.

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We're going to have fun.

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It's three days after the first, the first half of the first day.

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I just, I was in the phomac my doctor.

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And I'm like, I'm in St. George and you're going to have to call me in some Xanax.

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Because I don't know if I need to check myself into an emergency room, but I can't breathe

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that I'm being suffocated.

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And I just want to run and I just want to have a cigarette and I can't deal with this.

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And these therapists at this therapeutic boarding school, they exactly knew what I was going

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through and they made me sit through it.

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They made me sit through the pain and face it and talk me through it.

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And it was the hardest thing to face when you go 40 plus years in life just doing that surface

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face healing.

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But when you finally decide, yeah, let's do this.

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It's a piece of cake.

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But to face those demons and realize like, wow, I've been abandoned by my mother my whole

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entire life.

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Like this person in my family did this, like I like, those are some deep rooted.

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Yes, cords that need to be cut.

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It was tough.

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I find that so helpful.

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Like thank you for sharing it because sometimes to know where to start is it is such a challenge.

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So to hear that it started with daily affirmations and meditation, you know, we talk about that

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a lot on the show as such a entry point into the soul and into the heart and into the mind.

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So to hear that that's where it started for you and then continuing to layer more experiences

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and opportunities, I'll like painful to help walk that path with you.

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It helps to paint a picture of what can help other people.

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So thank you.

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Absolutely.

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Yes.

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There's something that else you had to overcome or pass through or break out of and your

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second book is about this forgiveness.

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What was forgiveness like for you that experience?

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I just feel like love coming out of my heart is I just think about it.

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Oh my goodness.

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It's beautiful.

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It's hard.

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It is.

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So it's just think like think of the next husband.

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Think of just think of those moments of those people that have really hurt you and a lot

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of people hold on to these grudges and these memories and I don't think they understand

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the full capacity that when we're holding on to this, we're allowing them to still have

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power over us.

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So on my healing journey as I'm doing this deep work, deep work, deep work and facing

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the reality that I have a second marriage that's coming to an end in a closure that I am

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able to look at all these people in my life that played part significant, significant parts,

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significant lessons that have been talked to me in these seasons and push past that pain

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where there's the unconditional love and just set them free because ultimately you're

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setting yourself free.

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It's the only way that I can explain it is being able to set yourself free and they

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no longer hold that bondage over you and to be able to say I love you and I forgive

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you and thank you for teaching me those lessons because they were hard.

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They were painful.

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My second husband by far was what a beautiful relationship and friendship but I was taught

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some of the hardest lessons but at the end of the day I know my value and myself worth.

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I love myself.

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I didn't have any of that.

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I had to repair all those archetypes that we'll get into.

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Yes.

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I think that bridges so beautifully.

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I thought you shared on your website and in your book around the evolving nature of relationships

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and as you outline especially in your 40s and 50s with an emphasis on building connections

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based on friendship and mutual respect.

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What I also really love about what you wrote is that you mentioned the rise of elevated

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standards and the importance of personal growth.

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I think those elevated standards come from exactly what you just spoke towards that very

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worked upon sense of self that you're not looking to others to determine your value and

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how that helps you to show up in relationships in a completely different way.

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I'm wondering your thoughts on setting higher standards in relationships and how that's

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contributed to a more fulfilling life.

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In regards to setting the higher standards, so I'm new to this now.

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I'm coming out of that second marriage but in regards to discovering this and setting

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higher standards in just relationships in general, basic friendships.

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I'm going to give you an energetic exchange of love and support and gratitude.

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I expect that to be in return and if it doesn't then I know how to set a firm or boundary.

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Yes, energetically and just physically.

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We keep things maybe a little more surface based in those relationships but the relationships

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that I can really nurture and support and grow most definitely.

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There's so much love then that we have in those friendships that they're family to me

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now.

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Yes, and now as I embark on this part two journey that I have, you know, I'm not looking to

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hop into a relationship that's not it.

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But my standards and expectations, I don't want to say expectations because they hate putting

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the word expectations on it.

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But just the standards that I have for myself, I know, yes, they're very high, the value.

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I know my worth.

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And if somebody can't see that, then we have to go.

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So do you believe you could have found that without the pain and the trials of the relationships

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that you have to go through?

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Did you have to go through the war zone to get to peace?

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Good question.

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So we go two ways.

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I could say no.

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I could have learned right away as a young adult.

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However, I believe God put me on this path for a specific reason.

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And the path that I've been given, the cross that I've had to bear for this long, like I

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stated earlier, has taught me all these beautiful lessons in a very painful, hard way.

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Yet, it's meant to be medicine for somebody else's soul, to be that teacher for somebody

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else.

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I believe this was all, I honestly do believe this was all orchestrated.

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I believe we contract our lives out to be honest with you.

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We want to go down that route.

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Yeah, we're going to go there.

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Let's just go there.

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I believe I signed up for this.

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I believe I had some karmic lessons that needed to be paid off and some debt.

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And I've told God I said, I don't want to come back human next time.

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You know, put me as a, yeah.

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But I really do.

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I think that there were some definite karmic debts that needed to be paid and some lessons

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that I had to learn in this lifetime.

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So I don't have to repeat it next time.

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Yeah.

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Well, I think that that's a, I mean, it's from, I think that there's a deeper knowing with,

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when you experience those sort of hardships that you, it's not about sympathizing with others,

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you can truly empathize in the heart of like the, the darkness of the soul with somebody

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who's walked through that valley.

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And there's a way that you resonate with people who are going through that that I feel

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that someone who hasn't gone through it just won't have that experience to be able to

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share.

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So of course, you know, we, we don't wish, I wouldn't wish any of that on anyone, but for

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the people who have gone through it, the camaraderie that you can find and seeing someone

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who's gone through it too and risen out of it, you know, not be burdened down by the shame,

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when shame really should be on the, on the switch sides.

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I think that it's, it's immensely powerful.

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So I just honor what you said there.

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Thank you.

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It's compassion.

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We have to have grace and compassion.

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And if I could walk amongst somebody that's going through the same thing and hold space

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for them with compassion and grace, absolutely.

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I'm your partner.

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Yeah, that's what healers do.

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That's what we do.

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Yeah.

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So is that the foundation for she is you?

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She is you?

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Yes.

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So I didn't have a place to turn to when I started my healing journey.

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I started with meditation and affirmations.

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Maybe popped a meditation on YouTube and, you know, all that good stuff.

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And then when I queried my book, pieces of me right before COVID, I heard back from somebody

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in New York.

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It was the best experience ever.

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Tell you how determined I am.

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I got this letter and they're like, you know, thank you for your interest.

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Nobody knows who you are and memoirs are hard to sell.

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And I took this as a, not a no, but like, give me, give me a minute here.

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Like hold, hold my beer.

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I'll be right back.

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Challenge accepted.

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Yes.

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I got, I got a brand to build.

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I have to get on social media and this has all been like self-invested, self-paid.

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It's maybe not the beautiful orchestrated, but it's me doing this and a little team that

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I have behind me that supports me and loves me and they've been with me from the very beginning.

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And it happened.

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Then I was picked up.

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And the best part about the pickup from the publisher that I got picked up was, so I

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am spiritually gifted and I had a dream and sometimes these dreams are just maybe visions, we'll

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say, okay?

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So I had this dream of a pink envelope coming in the mail with a certain font and I woke

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up and I'm like, it's key for a spirit.

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I told my husband, it's here.

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It's here.

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It's coming.

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I'm going to be picked up, but you have to remember, a spirit works on a different timeline.

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So I'm very impatient and I think that's one of my lessons that I am being taught this season

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in this lifetime.

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I'm like, okay, check in the mailbox.

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What is it going to come?

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I'm done.

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I had the message.

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I received an email and it was the pink letterhead in her business with the font and I'm

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like, oh my goodness.

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I had to share that story with her.

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I'm like, you don't understand like this is what I saw a year and a half ago.

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Yeah.

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Something that we love to ask our guests, Felicity, and I think there's something very powerful

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to your story and how you view this.

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But we love to ask our guests, what does feminine mean to you?

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Oh, I love it because I'm asking for this.

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Feminine is that energy where we are in a state of receiving.

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We sit back and we are open to receiving.

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We birth ideas, creativity, light, nurture.

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We support.

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It's just this beautiful light of receiving and birthing in creation.

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That to me is the feminine energy.

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Something I need more of, something that I'm learning to tap into when I can.

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How do you find that in this chapter of your life that you're exploring your feminine energy

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or tapping into it in new ways?

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Like what helps you to breathe in cultivating that?

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Because I think that often we live in a very masculineized world and I think a lot of people

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are looking to understand what feminine means in each of us in a world that has distorted

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it.

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I'm interested in how you're enjoying that piece of yourself.

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I love it.

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That is by far one of the awesome questions that I've heard in such a long time.

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Because we do live in a society that makes us have to armor up as women.

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I highly recommend to all my clients get into dance, get into a woman's circle, go to a drumming

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ceremony and just let that feminine just dance it out.

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Because that's your sacral chakra that's going to open up.

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That's your kundalini energy.

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Tap into that.

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Tap into art.

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Self-care, journaling.

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Be able to mentally think on your drive home from work.

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You're just placing that masculine energy in the passenger seat.

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When you enter those doors, you are now the feminine, whether it's mom, wife, and just

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soften up, self-care.

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For me, it's like the drumming circles and all those fun things.

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I love it because it is.

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It's that kundalini energy that fire that starts to just build up and breathe and just release

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and let out.

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It's beautiful, especially with a group of women.

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I enjoy that so much.

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I feel like art and even the ways that we conceptualize our next move.

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There's the offspring of our loins that the feminine, you know, but there's also the

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offspring of our mind and our heart.

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I think connecting to those pieces that feel very feminine for me as well is.

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It's important to me when I get home and I really try to exercise ways to bring that into

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my work life because my work can be very hyper-masculine.

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I think introducing that kind of energy to the working world, I think it's a challenge.

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But it makes a big difference.

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It makes a big difference.

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Do you think we're going to see a shift?

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I think we'll see a shift.

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I think so.

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I hope.

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That is what the show is all about.

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It is an aiding and having that shift conscious.

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That's why we talk about these topics.

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The one thing that I would caution is that a lot of people, when they hear the word feminine

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or think of the energy of feminine, they think primarily, if not exclusively, of female.

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It is an energy and it is within, it doesn't matter the sex or the gender, it is accessible

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to everyone and can be expressed and needs to be expressed by everyone, including men.

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I want to definitely put that on the table as well.

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I agree.

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Bring in that yang and yang back to this 21st century that we're in, that's within each

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of us.

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Part of that is the flip side of the coin of normally when we hear about masculinity, it's

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in the sense, predominantly, I feel these days is what toxic masculinity is.

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But emerging trends with men who are more involved with their families, men who are not wanting

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to get attention or control through abuse, these ways of honoring the masculine within us as

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well that isn't about domination, aggression and control, but about perhaps structure and

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direction.

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Because I feel like not that you can ever put these things in a nutshell because they are

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so vast.

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But I feel for me, if I had to do that, it would be that the feminine is the being and

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the masculine is the doing.

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And that both of those in us are so very important.

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I would only change one word instead of toxic, which has become sort of a catch phrase for

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everything.

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I would say the rewarded masculine.

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That's a good one.

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That is a good one.

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Oh, that's a topic.

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Is it ever?

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Yeah.

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Christopher, my drop.

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Okay.

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I know.

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I'm like, it's a sculptor's show.

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All right.

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Oh, hello.

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And rewarded masculine.

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You are 100% right.

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Maybe it's time we do pull away from that and start giving credit to that, to the men out

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there that are doing that, that are staying at home and working from home or my brother is

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a stay at home father.

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His wife is the one that works.

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It's the balance.

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She's got a business he's growing and yes.

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Absolutely.

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And toxic.

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Yeah.

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I love it.

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That's really nice to hear.

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The other thing that we love to ask our guest's Felicity is if there's one or if all three

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resonate for you or one in particular of the virgin, the beauty and the bitch.

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If there's a visceral response or what that word means to you now or over time, we love

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that to feed back from our guests.

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I think it's pretty.

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When I think of virgin, I go to Mary Magdalene.

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I don't know why.

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There's a purity with that when it comes to the beauty.

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I think of the feminine.

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It just everything that we emulate.

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And then when it goes, when we think about the bitch, that's the dark femme in me.

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That's like, that's the, yeah, that's a dark femme.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Yes.

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That's the dark femme, the Latina side of me.

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Yeah.

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We love that side.

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We love that side.

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Yes.

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We have to tame her, but yes.

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But she can't be tamed, which is part of the fun.

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You are so smart on with that.

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I've had men tell me that are really close guy friends of mine that are just like the

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wild needs to come out.

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The wild needs to be set free.

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And that has been resonating so strong with me.

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That'll be part two.

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Mm-hmm.

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I love that.

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Oh, I'm getting chills right now because it feels so right.

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I feel so good.

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Yes.

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Yeah.

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The construction that we've been in for so long.

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All right.

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So long.

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So rigid confines and.

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Mm-mm.

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It's interesting that before we started this recording that you and I, Felicity, were talking

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about your upcoming and being on TED TV at some point.

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Yes.

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Yes.

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Yes.

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We talked about your, you know, having a vocal coach and trying to open up the other side

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of you.

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I think that's the side of you you're trying to reach when you're on stage for your

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TED TV.

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That's the side of you that you're trying to, you know, show the world.

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It's there.

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Yeah.

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It is.

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She's got to be suffering.

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That's my goal on this season.

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Fantastic.

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Yes.

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I love it.

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Fantastic.

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This is about that.

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Yes.

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So, I mean, we would love to be able to share how do people find out more about you?

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Where can our listeners tune into your story?

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Find your books, all of the platforms that they may be able to get to know you better

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and the amazing healing work that you bring.

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Yes.

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Absolutely.

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So, you could visit Amazon or my website for my books.

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The higher consciousness approach to forgiveness should be released.

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I would say within the next few months.

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And regards to my website, sheisyoumag.com, FelicityNicole.com.

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And then just follow me Instagram FelicityNicole, you know, @FelicityNicole or however you put

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those.

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But we have my face.

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You'll see it there.

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You'll see it everywhere.

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You know, a tiktok.

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I love it all.

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Yes.

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I think if we could just come authentically ourselves.

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Absolutely.

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We are big and hot.

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Yeah.

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So, we started this conversation.

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I started this conversation by saying that I don't even know you, but I like you already.

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And now that we've talked for a few minutes here, I like you even more.

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Christopher, God bless.

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Thank you.

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You are an incredible human being.

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And what you have come through and the way that you have alchemized your pain into what

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it is now that you use to help others is absolutely priceless.

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Yes.

490
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Thank you.

491
00:30:06,140 --> 00:30:07,140
Thank you.

492
00:30:07,140 --> 00:30:08,140
That means a lot to me.

493
00:30:08,140 --> 00:30:09,140
Thank you.

494
00:30:09,140 --> 00:30:10,140
That's a gift.

495
00:30:10,140 --> 00:30:13,140
It's been such a pleasure to have you join us today.

496
00:30:13,140 --> 00:30:14,140
Thank you Felicity.

497
00:30:14,140 --> 00:30:17,140
It's really, it's been a joy and fun.

498
00:30:17,140 --> 00:30:18,140
Thank you.

499
00:30:18,140 --> 00:30:19,140
It has been.

500
00:30:19,140 --> 00:30:20,140
Thank you once again.

501
00:30:20,140 --> 00:30:21,140
I love it.

502
00:30:21,140 --> 00:30:28,140
And do you have been listening to the Virgin, the beauty and the dark fan bitch?

503
00:30:28,140 --> 00:30:31,140
We're letting her out.

504
00:30:31,140 --> 00:30:32,740
Yes, we are.

505
00:30:32,740 --> 00:30:33,740
Find us.

506
00:30:33,740 --> 00:30:34,740
Like us.

507
00:30:34,740 --> 00:30:35,740
Share us.

508
00:30:35,740 --> 00:30:39,940
You want to come on back because we're going to have more of this deeper darker later.

509
00:30:39,940 --> 00:30:40,940
All of it.

510
00:30:40,940 --> 00:30:41,940
Come on back.

511
00:30:41,940 --> 00:30:45,140
We've become a partner in the BBB community.

512
00:30:45,140 --> 00:30:50,940
We invite you to find us at virginbeautybitch.com.

513
00:30:50,940 --> 00:30:55,060
Click us on Facebook, Instagram and LinkedIn.

514
00:30:55,060 --> 00:30:59,940
And share us with people who are defiantly different.

515
00:30:59,940 --> 00:31:01,580
Like you.

516
00:31:01,580 --> 00:31:03,660
Until next time, thanks for listening.

517
00:31:03,660 --> 00:31:06,240
(upbeat music)